It was quite a difficult journey for the 20-year-old singer, who had great difficulty with the perception of her body. The performer told the publication that while her current relationship with the figure is still “no good,” it has gotten a lot better lately.
“My relationship with my body has been truly terrible, terrible since I was 11 years old. Now I like that my body is mine and that it is with me wherever I go. I think of my body as a friend. My ugly friend! It’s complicated. But what can you do?” Eilish shared, mentioning the age when she was diagnosed with Tourette syndrome.
Early in her career, Eilish was immediately recognizable by her baggy clothes and neon green-dyed hair. But the public did not always respond positively to the star’s unconventional style. “No matter what you do, you will still be judged. Baggy clothes do not attract anyone, and in them, I feel incredibly unloved, unsexy and ugly, and people shame you for not being feminine enough,” the singer told a British newspaper. And then Billie truly shocked the public by appearing on the cover of British Vogue in a delicate peach corset and platinum hair. Although this number became a hit and blew up social networks, users still found a way to harm the star. “Then you put on something more revealing, and they say, ‘You’re such a fat cow and a whore.’ I’m a whore, I’m corrupt, and I’m just like all the celebrities who sell their bodies! What the hell do you want? It’s a crazy world for women,” recalls the singer. Despite the fact that Eilish is adored by millions, the singer still does not feel desired. “I have concerns that I felt so unwanted that sometimes I tried too hard to be wanted. It makes me sad to think about it,” the star admitted.